I should be blogging about graces, but it's so far behind and i'm too lazy to dig through my brain and filter the relevant parts out, so I'll leave it like this, Graces we will remember.

What's that heart wretching feeling you get when you read something, and it just seems to cause a memory stuck in your head to begin bleeding... I dry up my tears, not long after, the tear streaks reappear. This emotion is hard to describe, not entirely sadness, nor regret, but neither is it simply about happiness or something so moving. It's a mix of so many many colours and nervous impulses. So I cry, smiling.

I skimmed through Lisa's blog just now, and maybe it wasn't her intention, but it really made me think harder about friendship. Who's considered your bestfriend? I have played about such thoughts before, but it has never been conclusive. I don't want to limit myself, at the same time I long for whole hearted, true friendships that last. And so I thank you, Elizabeth. =)

I've been silly, I push away things I want dearly. All because I reason, think too much. I justify myself by allowing my opinions on morality to over-rule. Maybe I shouldn't have done that, but both ways it hurts. My heart, mind and pride turns around to hurt me, so I close my eyes and keep everything out, and cling to a single strand of hope that somehow there would be meaning in a friendship like this. Maybe, if I should make a slit and peer into my heart, I will discover something else very different from what I think is actually inside. I will look forward to that!




YAY! i miss this place.

Yes, so why i've been absent for so long? Other than just procrastination, laziness, lethargy.. my comp encountered a bloody virus that entered it's system, causing havok and wreckage beyond measure. Till one fine day it could simply not withstand the attacks of the bloody virus, it's face turned blue and across it slashed the words:

'FATAL ERROR, FAIL TO RESTORE SYSTEM'

Yea, how tragic. (but of course, it was never alive) What's worse? ALL MY DATA IS GONE! I never had the habit of backup-ing, stupidly. T.T My photos, and music! OMG! Nevermind, somehow, someway, can be gotten out right! Yes, right. Let's not think about the monetary factor first..

Here comes the main story:

GRACES 08

Omg, i miss GRACES!



(to be con't)