YAY! Hahas, going to HongKong today, the flight's at like 1900 but I'm already stoning here in the departure hall -.- YESH, I finally get to meet Audrey! How many years was since I last met her...hmm, 4, 5 years? gosh! I MISS HER!! XD Can't wait to see her >< and possibly janabel too! =P whee~ gahh, time running out zzz. Sigh, I'm gonna miss all the fun during drama tomorrow. Oh well, just have to remember to get presents for everyone! hahas. I need to MAPLE! HAH. T.T too bad there is none in HK. Alright, better get going, others seem to want to use the computer. CYA!

'e ObLiT3RaToR~




If I ever got the chance, I would leave you.
I would sail into the vast ocean, on a ship with silver masts, never to be found.
I would ride on a silver horse, galloping into the misty plains, never to be seen again.
I will disappear from your sight, just like how it should be.


Todays sermon by Pastor Bryan was on the Parable of the Mustard Seed. I found it really inspirational. How little beginnings could become great successes. How a small mustard seed, could grow into a tree, and the largest of garden plants. Like, WOW. From such an insignificant thing, to a very significant one. God is unbelievably great. Drawing parallels to successful people in our society, notice that many stories of great successors started of with just a dream, a little step. It makes a difference, really! But then again, HARDWORK is the key. Which I don't happen to 'really' have. I can almost see it, amongst the mist, yet far, yet near, jiayou Nat! =) Change is taking place! Whoots! For the good, that is. I VOW that I WILL work hard, I WILL change myself and make.. a difference.

Sigh, strangely, people like C*n exist. I feel sorry for you Preston.

Unwritten
Natasha Bedingfield

I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
Im just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten

I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way

Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you can not find

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
But the rest is still unwritten

Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten (3x)

'e ObLiT3RaToR~




Checking of examination marks are, SCARY.. T.T but, nvrm =X
Mr Tan, some math teacher went throught part of the paper with us in the auditorium today. He is hilarious!! Firstly, because he spoke in a very nasal voice. Secondly, he said"This is the end of the session." (chatterchatterchatter) *positions mike slightly furthur from him* "This is the end of the session." *positions mike even furthur from himself* "This is the end of the session." LOL. I have no idea what he was trying to do.. o.o Secondly, the part when he mentioned"I am personally going to hang you by your eyelashes on the flag pole..." HAHAHA Thirdly, he flashed a note on the projector and said"You can read, so...{read}" Obvious!! ><

Enough about this interesting math teacher, who apparently is 'Yam-like"(joking, or maybe not.HAH.)

[sidetrack]
HI NATTY! Good luck for your HMP second instrument exams! Yoyoyo! :D
[/sidetrack] -Chew Fei

Oh yes, and I have to stone here until Mr Lim calls me to go for the exam -.-
(Chan Chi Ling) became Chai Chee Ling O.O

"Pain is good.
Pain is your friend.
When you feel pain, you know you're alive."

-Will, WTC

Nat, drunk?
Almost there.
SAKE...

err, I'll continue tomorrow.
'e ObLiT3RaToR~




WAHAHAHAHAAH BLOGGING IN UNISON WHOOT.

HMP paper 3 today..SCREW. but I'm high. HAH

ok fine, I got locked in the band room for 1/2 an hour, STONE COLD LEH. T.T
JO, VALERIE, RUIMIN, QIANWEN AND KEXIN ABANDONED ME IN THE BAND ROOM! *SOBS*

sidetrack: 3/4 of Ohana is not playing maple anymore.. HAH -Qianwen
sidetrack: What's the URL for MOTAS? -Valerie

HAH KEXIN IS PLAYING MAPLE YAY!! XD

wow, everyone is playing MOTAS WAHAHAHA.

sidetrack: Kexin says hi. =P

HAH I'M VERY HAPPY XD

Please go to Valerie, Qianwen, Ruimin, Jo and Kexin's blog for more information.

'e ObLiT3RaToR~




Can't you just forgive a little, let a little? I spent my whole bloody afternoon whithering my time away just to help you scan all those documents, not even a thankyou or an 'ok'? Then what now, you start pushing the blame to someone else? Senseless. You know I am freakingly irritated already by everythings that going on, and you still want to add fuel to the flame? The flame not of anger, but of the lost of confidence. I'm just losing my rhythm, losing my stability, I'm giving up entirely. Oh, everything is because of me, if you hadn't thought that way, it wouldn't be this way. You have your part to play too in this.

I've lost my grip, I'm fearing more and more, of everything. I wish time would stop when I were asleep, I would just freeze in time, and never need to face everything else again. I've tried, many times. Your standards too high, and neither kind. I give up. I really do. What's next? ColdWar.




ok nvrm, I'd rather just reply from here instead.

Replies:
[Winter Person]: wait stop. NOOOOOOOOOO you CANT miss my birthday..T.T WAHHHHH *cries* Ok fine, what have I told you many times over and over again? Think POSITIVE!! Well, at least you still have Shirley. I mean, it can't be all that bad. God is muchmuch better than you think, he's just testing you my dear. Your tolerance, perseverance, faith in Him... Look at things from a different perspective alright? Hope, that glimmer, is not just a glimmer, look beyond it. It's the door to a whole new experience! Don't be depressed, it's just a little thing that you have to learn to overcome, your fear that you might lose us, or have us seperated by the vast sea. But the fact is, you won't lose us, and distance doesn't matter. It's the thought that counts. Really. However heartless the world may be, you know we 3 will still be friends to the end. We'd even die in the same type of coffins and be buried near each other. Remember? But we have to save Leo and Con first >< ok, I don't want you to be depressed, and since you love me so much, listen to me. Please, the last few things you could do. Is to let my heart have peace, that you are fine.
[Fiona]: hiyya! no lar, you WONT screw your math =P and you jiayou too!!
[Rosalind]: HEYYO! I am sophistocated? o.o So, shall I take it positively? hahas. well, you could come over to my house for lunch! but shifting soon, so it CHAO messy -.- poor nat? O.O XD luvya!
[Chewa]: HIYYA!! tequilla? reminds me of aquila,(maple world) HAHAS. at least your crap DOES make sense, while mine usually don't >< oh great, you and ros could come over for lunch again!! heh. forgive me for the mess.. -.- luvya too!


err. ya thats it.
`e ObLiT3RaToR~




It's hard to believe, that I can deem everything as 'fun'. I mean, the things that are within the categories, examinations, studying, exercising and just figuring stuff out. History, to E=MC^2 proves not as an unenjoyable experience to go through, but a 'fun' and yet meaningful one. Rejoice, rejoice and rejoice for you have the Lord. Humans were not made to live life in martyrdom either. Thus live the best life you can live. Have 'fun'. =)

I'm amazed by myself once again. From the little time I need to recover from the last fall, to how easy it is, for me to forget, the things I want to. How forgiving I am, to the extent that I forgive, and forget, instantly. I'm not trying to boast, but simply stating the perceptions of me from a by-stander's point of view. I was torn, many many times, but no one knew, I never showed. I was known as the whacky late homework girl. Not that it is a good thing. My tolerance, is infinite, or almost there.

I'm cut short again, cya,
'e ObLiT3RaToR~




I stare blankly at my open hands, the very hands that had failed me.
I stare blankly into the mirror, the very person I see in it, has failed me.
If only I hadn't made that big mistake, if only I had though over. If only I had been more emotional, if only...

There's no use anymore, now I need the courage to face the repercussions of my actions. I'm proved to be a failure, once again, in of all things but my first language. I have come to realise the beauty and grace in these letters, spun into a lovely tale, a touching story. How I had unknowingly loved the language of which I call my very own. Language, a means of communication, a neccessity of life. It's seemingly flawless, with not even a tiny crack or scratch in it... (to be continued)

So here I stand, as a victim of competition, and the viciousness of the teachers. I will but proclaim death no longer. Be positive, confident. These words have no effect on me anymore, but my conscious does. Shadowing me with every move, I fear it sometimes, I often even fear myself. No more about fear that I should ramble about. Another day I guess? I'm such a procrastinator. -.-

Wish me luck for tomorrow's exam! God will guide and lead the way, His light will shine.
'e ObLiT3RaToR~




Luo says my post's are inspirational, her daily digests O.O So I have no choice but to post, no matter how un-inspirational it is. hahas. I'm tired..

History exam is now history! XD Well, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would have been. =)It was instead..fun! heh. Say I'm mad, wierd, whatever, but connie agrees with me!! =X Not much to crap today..just that I am afraid of the LA examination tomorrow. T.T Only praying for the best!

Val mentioned that she ALWAYS met Chiang in the photocopy shop. (other than class lar) Dotz, aiya he's a nice teacher lar. Lets all be nice students *halo*

Slacking the whole afternoon, I did up some screenshots. But well, their no big deal. =X Now I'm getting a hang of photobucket, first time I've used it. I feel so backward O.O

Forum-ing was fun today! I was the eh..fugitive -.- runrunrun..then Byen and Owl were chasing me with their xBows. Kira after that, coz I betrayed him in the story when he got hit WAHAHA. fine lame. Everyone else was eating melting cheese -.- cept me. LOL

I think this sounds nice. Always be positive! =P

It's not because you're bad,
It's because the world it too good.
It's not becuase you're slow,
It's because the world is too fast.
It's not because you're dumb,
It's because the world is too advanced.

Luo~Nat

CYA,
`e ObLiT3RaToR~