okayokay..updating lol. so yes the other part..success. just remember without trying and failing, its hard to get to success. Its not only about the results, its the learning proccess. Mistakes we all make, its part of the proccess, an important part. but to achieve success, you need determination, perseverance, strength, passion. do not be put back by set backs, never give up. defy boundaries, exert your innermost strength. fear not, God will be there for you, seek him in times on need, and you will find. But one too needs a passion, a drive, a pushing force. sometimes from role models, or simply inspiration, from family and friends. you need to know what you want, what you don't want. k i'd come back another day...tmrw? gahh no time. see lar. k. bye

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secrets to success. Success, is the achievement of something that you have been trying to do. Setting a goal, and completing the task. and success is God given. typically it means fufilling life's goals and missions in God's wils, the blessings of God in one's life, to be. if success is the blessings of God that comes upon our lives, then million dollar question is, how to achieve success? Success come when we have power, the power to BE. Everyone wants success, it defines a person, who they are, where they stand in the world. Status, wealth, health, favour. to have godly success, you need to have a godly perspective, a vision, prophetic revelation. Vision is also defined as a dream, and if there is a dream there would be hope, the first steps to success. if there is no vision, prophetic revelation or dream, one will perish, living life recklessly without hope and there would be no success.

God has destined us to be a successer, the head, not the tail. once we are born, we experience success by the Lord. the world only listens to successful people, not losers. we need to be blessed by the Lord, the Holy Spirit, to have a vision, to be successful. so the first point to be successful, is to have a pophetic revelation, a vision that is given by God.

Thats not all. to have godly success, one needs to to have a heavenly perspective. based on opinions, and believes. vision is like a picture, but perpective is like the lens. A divine perspective that will give us a focus and a sense of positivism so that we can be positive. Perspective affects how we see the society, how we believe ourselves which affects how we act, how we think. having a heavenly perpective would then re-orientates our actions and behavior. it takes the focus of our circumstance to where we should go and where we should be.

get God's assessement of our lives, not the world's assessement. the world's assessment of our lives will always put us down, reject us and make us feel as if we are not successful. but God's assessment is different, it is the way to success. so the second point is to have a heavenly perpective, to be successful. sieze the oppurtunity, and become success. the last point is to pray the right way. pray a God-enableing prayer, a prayer that would enable God to work in your life so you can achieve success.

~Seek the Lord and you would find success~

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skipped cca today... the wound on my toe doesnt seem to be healing. i don't know why. maybe i need more medicine.. gahh, dunno whats wrong.

well anw,school..wasn't really as enjoyable as i thought it would have been today.. people simply don't realise what is going on around them. their insensitive, childish and crappy. time and time again the ugly side of them were revealed to me, but i still accepted them, cared, and helped them. what do i get back? nothing. but everytime i try to isolate myself, i cant, i simply go back to them. i just.. have to soft a heart... and what else, now a total freak is sticking around with them. i don't understand why. they say they hate her, but what do i see? aren't what they told me total lies? do they think i'm a fool?? well heck, now they've got other friends isn't it. like i care. there is seriously no point and purpose for me to bother. but theres this thing in me.. drawing me back to them. sigh.. i'm surrounded with hypocrytes, i can't find a.. a real friend. maybe i have but it then again were not to far from each other. but.. do i even need friends at all? just acquantances, not friends..won't that be enough? it won't make any difference to them anyway. even thought i've made up my mind, i know i would revert back again. oh well.. i'll see.

sabbaticals starting next week.. environmental science. their not in the same course as me. i know that freak is gonna do something... psycho them into hating me. for unknown reasons. isit jealousy or what? it doesnt mean that if i
m not allowed to like go out myself.. i'm pampered and overprotected. its just what they think, or at least i suppose they think so. i simply think that theres no use of doing certain stuff cause its a total waste of time. plus..i'm pampered? oh please..they just don't know the background stuff.. its all hidden under the mask i wear. not meant to be reveiled. heck.

acting is simply the best solution. just act. okie then. bye

'e ObLiT3RaToR-




mann..the questions never end.. too bad i hurt my toe..missed napfa today.. at least i have the WHOLE june to train now!! =P so hmm..my flamming list is growing. icy thinks i've got some escapism.. wadeverr.

cca was lame..just slacked the whole time while chattin with sarah.. who seems to be SO like me..only thing shes a gepper. shes smart, shes sweet too.. it was really great talkin to her. n guess wad, she wanted to go nushs too! just like me! but sadness..her mom made her turn it down..awww. such a pity. sigh...

we'll now i'm trying to rush a compo and a compre. both chinese..how nice.. T.T
hmp test was terrible too, i think i kinda left 5 blanks..all 1 mark. dotz.. oh
well. its over already, theres nothin i can do now rite..

okie then back to mugging and doing hw..lalala~ cya

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i'm so confused now..i wanna transfer to nus high school in sec 3... but theres a constrain..chinese dance..of all timings..why must SYF be held in 2007??? i ask myself this. but come to think of it, if it werent in 2007, wont other ppl wish it would be? how could i have such selfish thinking!.. mannn.. i so hate this situation i'm in, its either i give up NYCD or give up NUSHS. its seems so simple, just give up dance...but dance, my is what i live for, is what drives me. sigh.. and it'll be such a waste if i give up nus. should i pursue my studies, science and maths in particular, or dance?? i've aspired to be a doctor, but will it come to pass if i choose dance? sigh. when the time comes i'll make my decision. for now i'll just lay these worries aside, and consult the Lord. I shall put my mind to ease and think it'll be alright, or at least i hope it would be. think theres still time...

tomorrows HMP test and NAPHA...i'll just die there lar. T.T music history.of all things..and we've only got 1 pathetic book. sigh.. i din even train for NAPHA.. i'll just barely pass the mark to get a gold. wadeverr. i dont care, and i dont even want to. mug abit more then go sleep ler. i've got too many worries, too many things going on inside me. just letgo... i can't! i don't know why..i just can't. my heart beats rapidly increases...n my lungs feel tight. i worry about my health, and alot of other stuff too...i shall just go pray and sleep now. under my breath i hope for the best, though i doubt. still.

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why must i be in such a situation..why?? money..is all he thinks of. hes a jerk, a freak a terrible person.goes round running ppl down. and hu does he think he is? to speak untrue of my dad. to curse, to accuse, to blame. oh forget it. now i have to struggle mentally...overcome this fear this anger. be cool, reserved.then there will be peace.then he blames me now..that i stole his money...why would i want to in the first place? its not as if i'm poor.oh and he thinks my dad is a suck up?? what is his problem??? he has something against me, he simply wants to get rid of me. it'll be hard...i'll just stand firm my ground. i'm in hes out. simple. i certainly am depressed..nothing can take away my emotional pain. once again i'll wear a mask, and hide all my sadness. no one can hear my hidden cries. no one will see the tears i shed. all they will see is one who is joyous, happy, and never subdued.


and btw..hes my sf.


i'll just dissapear into the darkness, and reappear with the light.

'e ObLiT3RaToR~