enough quizzes for me... lol. the day before, ytd, today. *crystal scales bleeding glittering tears. sigh.. what is wrong with me? why the hell am i this way??? zzz, sometimes i so hate myself, for being me. i keep making mistakes over and over and over again. ppl do make mistakes, but i cant be forgiven, i've made too many, far too many, over and over again. why, do i always forget? always so lethargic, and dead. why? what made me like this? i don't even know. i suck in everything, as my mom says...its not cause i don't want to, its coz i dont have enough motivation. i'm put down all the time, over and over again. help me. no one can, only i can help myself.. tried, i reslly did. but i'll try again, with a whole lot more determination and energy this time. i need to...save myself from this wilderness journey i'm lost in. to find myself, to achieve what i want and what i need to. i want to, start over. its just i've hardly been given enough time, let alone the chance to. things just come shooting back, and i'm being thrown back again, into the dark. if only i could..have a family whole, if only i had been stronger, and not so supceptable to things happening around me. if only i had a heart of stone when i want to, no feelings, no emotions, nothing would move me. my dreams are closed to being shattered, while my mom is closed to hating me. i seem to fear life now, but i have to face it, the truth, the problem, me. if only i could...start life altogether again.. its impossible, we all know.

God, save me,take me away.

'e ObLiT3RaToR~




Mark your confessions:
[x] I'm afraid of silence. *depends, sometimes i'm the silencer
[ ] I Talk A LOT when I get really nervous.
[x] I am really ticklish. *i could control..
[x] I'm afraid of the dark.
[x] I'm afraid of facing my back to open doors at night. *also depends on the door..
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is open *i need it open -.-
[ ] I can't sleep in a room if the door is closed
[ ] I am afraid of gay or lesbian people.
[x] I believe in true love.
[ ] I've run away from home
[ ] I listen to political music
[ ] I collect comic books
[ ] I shut others out when I'm sad.
[ ] I've stayed out all night. * i need my beauty sleep.. zzz
[x] I open up to others easily.
[ ] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I watch the news
[ ] I own over 5 rap CDs.
[x] I love Disney movies.
[x] I am a sucker for green eyes.
[ ] I am a sucker for brown eyes.
[x] I am a sucker for blue eyes
[ ] I dont kill bugs
[x] I curse.
[ ] I have an "x" in my screen name.
[x] I've slipped and fell in public.
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation
[x] I love Spam...
[ ] I bake well
[x] I have worn pajamas to class. *wad? that was for the drama wad..
[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie. ..??
[ ] I want a better job.
[ ] Talked on a phone for 6+ hours.
[ ] I love Dr. Phil. *who ??
[ ] I like multiple people
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I am self-conscious. * i doubt so sometimes.
[x] I love to laugh.
[ ] I have smoked a pack in one day.
[ ] I loved Lord of the Flies.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick.
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I have a lot of scars.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I love chocolate.
[ ] I bite my nails.
[ ] I am not comfortable with being me.
[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.
[ ] Gotten lost in the city. * all i need is a map =P
[ ] Thought of suicide before.
[x] Seen a shooting star.
[ ] Had a menage a trois.*??
[x] Gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] Have kissed someone really strange....* was it the other way??..
[x] Hugged a stranger. *the stranger hugged me!! so do i have a choice?
[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of a diff. sex.
[x] Been in a fist fight *hehheh..
[ ] Been arrested.
[ ] Laughed and had some type of beverage comeout of my nose.
[x] Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[ ] made out in an elevator.
[ ] Swore at Liberace.
[x] Kicked a guy where it hurts on purpose
[ ] Been skydiving.
[ ] Been bungee jumping.
[ ] Gotten stitches *u mean those when u get a cut..? nope.
[x] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[x] Bitten someone
[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] Gotten the chicken pox.
[ ] Crashed into a car...
[x] been to Japan.
[x] Ridden in a taxi.
[ ] shoplifted
[ ] Been fired.
[x] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.
[ ] Stole something from your job.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[x] Been to Europe.
[ ] Slept with a co-worker, and/or employee.
[x] been to New York
[ ] Been married
[ ] Gotten divorced
[x] Saw someone/something dying.
[ ] Have a list of people you want to kill.
[ ] Driven over 400 miles in one day.
[x] Been to Canada.
[x] Been on a Plane.
[ ] Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.
[x] Thrown up in a bar or club
[x] Eaten sushi.
[x] Been snowboarding.
[x] care for someone sooo much
[ ] taken a picture just for the sole purpose ofputting it on myspace/friendster..
[x] Been ice skating
[x] Cried in public.
[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyesclosed.
[x] been at a party and instead of giving out your phone number you give them your myspace name and say look me up
[x] liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have.
[x] Thought of someone a lot lately.
[x] Hate the world. * and love the world too.
[x] Love someone who doesnt realize it
[ ] have your cell phone permanently attached to your hand/hip
[x] cried over a guy/girl you didnt even go out with. *it was.. a girl.

done? phew its over at last..lol.




ok this is so damn lame, mac cant copy and paste -.-. so nvrm..well i just got a mail from the SPCA. those poor animals, 1000s of them being abandoned and ,many put down each year. imagine, if you were one of them, how would you feel? heartbroken? depressed? left out? sigh. thats the case of the world, the evil world we live in. not many care for animals, let alone care to help them. what else can i say? you know the rest. be responsible. its the basics. love animals, as friends, as family, sometimes animals are better than human beings themselves..they have hearts too, minds of their own. souls that are not to be forsaken and neglected.

-another obsession...SING.

gtg, cya nitez.

'e ObLIT3RaToR~




ok this is so damn lame, mac cant copy and paste -.-. so nvrm..well i just got a mail from the SPCA. those poor animals, 1000s of them being abandoned and ,many put down each year. imagine, if you were one of them, how would you feel? heartbroken? depressed? left out? sigh. thats the case of the world, the evil world we live in. not many care for animals, let alone care to help them. what else can i say? you know the rest. be responsible. its the basics. love animals, as friends, as family, sometimes animals are better than human beings themselves..they have hearts too, minds of their own. souls that are not to be forsaken and neglected.

-another obsession...SING.

gtg, cya nitez.

'e ObLIT3RaToR~




Have you...
[x] skipped class?
[x] hugged someone in school?
[ ] gotten detention?
[x] cried in school?
[x] made new friends?
Total: 4

[x] got dropped off at school?
[x] heard a rumour about yourself?
[ ] gone to school under the influence?
[x] had something illegal in school?
[x] missed school when you weren't sick?
Total: 4

[x] failed a test?
[x] failed a class?
[x] made up an excuse for homework not being done?
[x] the teacher believed your lame excuse?
[ ] crushed on a teacher?
Total: 4

[ ] hit on a teacher?
[x] hated a teacher?
[x] involved with a sport?
[ ] on student council?
[x] in a club?
Total: 3

[ ] got a scholarship?
[x] got an award?
[x] fallen asleep in school?
[x] gotten in trouble for falling asleep in class?
[x] had your phone go off in class?
Total: 4

[ ] had your phone taken away?
[x] lied to a teacher?
[x] laughed so hard you cried in class?
[ ] ate lunch in the bathroom?
[x] missed a week of school or more at once?
Total: 3

Do you/Did you/Will you?...
[x] enjoy school?
[x] excited for summer?
[ ] taking summer school?
[ ] had a summer job?
[x] going somewhere?
Total: 3

Now add it all together and multiply by 2.
Title "My School Year is __% exciting!"
24*2 = 48%
My School Year is 48% exciting. seems to disintrest me...




**ripped stuff =P>

whats your name spelt backwards?
eilatan
What did you do last night?
stayed at home.. mapling

The last thing you downloaded onto your computer?
er..some music.

Have you ever licked a 9 volt battery?
no..

Last time you swam in a pool?
last month i guess..

What are you wearing?
pyjamas

How many cars have you owned?
u mean real ur toy cars..? xD

Type of music you dislike most?
devilish, hard rock, metal music.

Are you registered to vote?
nop.

Do you have cable?
yepps

What kind of computer do you use?
Compact, HP laptop.

Ever made a prank phone call?
yea.. hahas

You like anyone right now?
maybe..

Would you go bungee jumping or sky diving?
it wouldn't hard would it?

Furthest place you ever traveled?
LA

What's your favorite comic strip?
i dont really read comics.. but i think garfield is cute. xD

Shower, morning or night?
morning

Best movie you've seen in the past month?
Over the Hedge was cute..=P

Favorite pizza toppings?
cheese!!! peperroni too!

Chips or popcorn?
chips..

Have you ever been in a beauty pageant?
those for little kids.. when i was really young.lol

Orange Juice or apple?
apple

Who were the last people you sat at lunch with?
my mom.

favorite chocolate bar?
with alcohol filling xD.

Who is your longest friend and how long?
Li Ting.. bout 9 years?

Last time you ate a homegrown tomato?
eh.. last last yr? in perth...

Sprite or 7-UP?
sprite xD

Have you ever had to wear a uniform to school/work?
er.. durr?

Would you prefer being a millionaire or finding truelove?
can i have both..xD

Do you believe in love at first sight?
yea.. sometimes.

Did you have long hair as a young kid?
yepp

Whats the name of your pet?
hmm..bobby, happie, fanny, chobby..... the list goes on, cant rmb..

What kind of back pack do you have, and what's in it?
just some normal one..with books lor, and my dance shoes. xD.

Who do you think about most?
depends...

ripp//